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I don't know what else to write.

I went to visit Siti today. I told myself not to cry because I read somewhere if you cried when visiting somebody who was sick, it would somehow gives a negative aura to him/her. So yeah I told myself, sila jadi kental and please don't cry!!

But I know myself so well. I know I will cry. The moment she hold my hand firmly as if telling us thank you for coming, I went weak. I tried telling her that she looks fine. That she looks as macam selalu kat ofis dulu. But who am I kidding. Telling her that sambil air mata jurai jurai? Stooopid. So in the end, I just hold her hand firmly telling her that I would pray for her but she need to be strong untuk diri sendiri, anak, suami dan keluarga dia. But really, I know she is much much stronger than me...

Lately I have been thinking much about death. And how much bekalan untuk diri sendiri yang ada bila ajal datang menjemput. .

Dan saya jadi takut. Kerana saya pasti, bekalan saya masih belum cukup. Mohon sekiranya usia ini dilanjutkan biarlah dengan keberkatan dari Yang Satu. Mohon. Ya Allah.