As for now, there's still no pain or whatsoever...And my annual leave dah tinggal 3 hari and I can only take unpaid leave if I'm still not in labour by next week...Tapi tak kisah lah tu. Hubby said, lepas nih pun dapat 2 bulan gaji tanpa bekerja apa...hehehe..btol gak tu kan?
I was so much in emotional stress last week that I actually cried all by myself for more that 30 minutes on Thursday afternoon. I lock the door and all the windows, put on the TV full blast and cried my heart out. I wanted to call Hubby but then it will only make him more worried. And I don't really have a good reason to cry except that I'm still not yet in labour. So I just sat on my bed cried.
Later, I went for a shower and then watch Friends and gelak kuat kuat sorang sorang. I sounded like I'm losing my sanity, didn't I? Anyway, did I mention I bought 3 Friends VCDs for 10 ringgit? At one of those Speeedy Videos some more..is that cheap or what? Ok, fine.. nobody use VCD anymore, but what the heck?
Dah..dah..jgn nak buat muka senget..aku belum gila lagi ok kawan kawan?? Mentel separuh jek..hehehe...
I read a magazine last night, (majalah apa lagi kalau bukan pasal parenting)
there's a stage in labour that some women will start to vomit, shakes uncontrollably, poo, SWEAR and ANNOUNCE THAT SHE WANTED TO COME HOME.
I got this weird feeling that I'll do the things in bold. I showed the article to Hubby and we laugh our hearts out, pretending I'm in labour, swearing at all the doctors and nurses and then getting up to go home with the baby still stuck down there..
I think it's funny... (pause)
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erkkk...OK..it will be NOT funny when I'm REALLY in labour...
Monday, July 14, 2008
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Malam Jumaat Yang Saspen
It was yet another happy week. I am still here peeps. And still very much pregnant.
Went to see the doctor last Thursday. She asked me wheter I experienced any pain or not, but I did not answer. She laughs. I think she knows I'm worried, like very very worried.
She said she's giving me another week. If there's no pain till then, they will induce me for delivery. I know it will developed more severe pain but I really can't wait anymore.
I was having difficulty sleeping last night. I hid all my cash and jewelleries. I did that all the time when I had this weird feeling.
Around 3 a.m I heard those patrol cars sirens and saw them annoying blue lights trough the curtains. I woke from bed to see something out of Gerak Khas The Movie in front of my house.
I can see very clearly as it was less than 50 m away from my room. There was like 10 patrol cars, maybe more. Tak termasuk kereta biasa untuk polis berpakaian biasa. Erk..Wujud ke istilah tu? Tapi memang banyak kereta lah. I know they are chasing another car but I can't see the car they were chasing.
After some police holdings some guns scene, some smashing windows sounds, some punching sounds (imagine Gerak Khas peeps), few of my neighbours were already outside to find out what had happened. I still hid behind the window curtain. And Hubby woke up.
Around 4 a.m I got my first version of the story. Apparently some kids had decided not to stop when a police car tried to stop them. They were drunk and loaded with pills. The car was borrowed from another kid in my neighbourhood whose father happen to be a D9 (I don't know what that means, but it sounds something/somebody important in the police force). Adegan kejar mengejar started when they refuse to stop and it ended when kereta yang dikejar hilang tayar sebelah dan terbabas ke dalam longkang.
I saw the owner of the car later, after the police left with 3 other kids in the car. Budak ni pulak, jalan terhoyong hayang from his house, not long after his mom came to look at the car. He didn't go straight to the car though, just sitting at a nearby bench trying his best to look frustrated. Seems like he already knew how bad is the car.
Well, my version of the story is rather different. It is obvious that the owner of the car was inside the car as well but he managed to escaped and ran back to the house to changed. Pandai!! Tak kisah la tu. Pandai buat, pandai la dia simpan.
Rather reminded me that time when something similar happened to me and my friends back in JB. Jaz was with me, As and Aie..(eh..Aie di mana ya sekarang??) We just got back from bundle-hopping and decided to meet Smurfette. Tiba - tiba kena kepung, kena acu pistol oleh polis di tengah - tengah trafik JB yang sesak yang masa tu tengah berhenti lampu merah. TAK CUAK KO RASA??? The different things were, we were not drunk, not loaded with pills, and we co-operated....nasib baik tak jadi apa apa.
Went to see the doctor last Thursday. She asked me wheter I experienced any pain or not, but I did not answer. She laughs. I think she knows I'm worried, like very very worried.
She said she's giving me another week. If there's no pain till then, they will induce me for delivery. I know it will developed more severe pain but I really can't wait anymore.
I was having difficulty sleeping last night. I hid all my cash and jewelleries. I did that all the time when I had this weird feeling.
Around 3 a.m I heard those patrol cars sirens and saw them annoying blue lights trough the curtains. I woke from bed to see something out of Gerak Khas The Movie in front of my house.
I can see very clearly as it was less than 50 m away from my room. There was like 10 patrol cars, maybe more. Tak termasuk kereta biasa untuk polis berpakaian biasa. Erk..Wujud ke istilah tu? Tapi memang banyak kereta lah. I know they are chasing another car but I can't see the car they were chasing.
After some police holdings some guns scene, some smashing windows sounds, some punching sounds (imagine Gerak Khas peeps), few of my neighbours were already outside to find out what had happened. I still hid behind the window curtain. And Hubby woke up.
Around 4 a.m I got my first version of the story. Apparently some kids had decided not to stop when a police car tried to stop them. They were drunk and loaded with pills. The car was borrowed from another kid in my neighbourhood whose father happen to be a D9 (I don't know what that means, but it sounds something/somebody important in the police force). Adegan kejar mengejar started when they refuse to stop and it ended when kereta yang dikejar hilang tayar sebelah dan terbabas ke dalam longkang.
I saw the owner of the car later, after the police left with 3 other kids in the car. Budak ni pulak, jalan terhoyong hayang from his house, not long after his mom came to look at the car. He didn't go straight to the car though, just sitting at a nearby bench trying his best to look frustrated. Seems like he already knew how bad is the car.
Well, my version of the story is rather different. It is obvious that the owner of the car was inside the car as well but he managed to escaped and ran back to the house to changed. Pandai!! Tak kisah la tu. Pandai buat, pandai la dia simpan.
Rather reminded me that time when something similar happened to me and my friends back in JB. Jaz was with me, As and Aie..(eh..Aie di mana ya sekarang??) We just got back from bundle-hopping and decided to meet Smurfette. Tiba - tiba kena kepung, kena acu pistol oleh polis di tengah - tengah trafik JB yang sesak yang masa tu tengah berhenti lampu merah. TAK CUAK KO RASA??? The different things were, we were not drunk, not loaded with pills, and we co-operated....nasib baik tak jadi apa apa.
Friday, July 04, 2008
The 39th Week
Yesterday was another routine check up. Well, during this last month of pregnancy, I need to see the doctor every week. To make sure that the baby is in good condition at all times.
It was a very brief check up. Everything seems ok, as told by the doctor. Dr. R.S was more interested in the position of the placenta and Baby's heartbeat. Seems that both were in fine condition. Dr. R.S showed me some 4D version of my baby's face. I was quite overwhelmed when he showed me the image of my baby sucking his finger.
I smiled all the way out of the doctor's room.
Around 10 last nigt, I experienced pain below the abdomen. Can't really close my eyes. I was restless. Hubby sat on the floor, near the bed, rubbing my back slowly, trying to make me feel comfortable, I guess. I asked him to hold my hand. Eventually I fall asleep.
I woke up around 12 for a trip to the bathroom. Hubby was still there. Tidur terduduk tepi katil. Still holding my hand.
Kesiannya tengok dia. Mula lah nak sayu tak tentu pasal.
Me actually speaking to Baby Adam, "Adam cepat cepat keluar ya. Kesian ayah."
It was a very brief check up. Everything seems ok, as told by the doctor. Dr. R.S was more interested in the position of the placenta and Baby's heartbeat. Seems that both were in fine condition. Dr. R.S showed me some 4D version of my baby's face. I was quite overwhelmed when he showed me the image of my baby sucking his finger.
I smiled all the way out of the doctor's room.
Around 10 last nigt, I experienced pain below the abdomen. Can't really close my eyes. I was restless. Hubby sat on the floor, near the bed, rubbing my back slowly, trying to make me feel comfortable, I guess. I asked him to hold my hand. Eventually I fall asleep.
I woke up around 12 for a trip to the bathroom. Hubby was still there. Tidur terduduk tepi katil. Still holding my hand.
Kesiannya tengok dia. Mula lah nak sayu tak tentu pasal.
Me actually speaking to Baby Adam, "Adam cepat cepat keluar ya. Kesian ayah."
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Just because I love Abu
Because I have friends who will be there this weekend,
Because it is in Ipoh, peeps!
And it is not that often we have nice gig like this in Ipoh,
Because I think this will be a great gig,
And Because I love Abu... (the witty, playful character in Kami)
But I don't think I can attend it..*sob* *sob*
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Hati Patah Remuk Berkecai
I've never been into a bad relationship. I meant the really bad ones yang membuatkan hati aku -patah-remuk-berkecai. Mungkin nasib aku baik. Tapi kalau dilihat dari sudut lain, mungkin juga tak berapa baik.
Yang pastinya aku tak tau nak react macam mana kalau ada kawan kawan yang hati patah-remuk-berkecai. Aku selalu hilang punca kalau dalam situasi macam tu. Aku jadi takut. Takut salah cakap....takut salah buat lawak.....takut kawan kawan terasa hati....takut macam macam lah....
Lama sebelum aku kenal Hubby, hati nya pernah patah-remuk-berkecai sebab seorang perempuan. MIL pun pernah juga "terkeluar" cerita yang satu itu kalau bergossip - gossip ringan dengan aku, tatkala Hubby pergi bermain bola sepak di padang, of course.
Ala...kalau bercerita depan dia pun sekarang ni pasal hal tu, dia dah tak rasa apa pun sebenarnya.
Dia pernah bagi aku baca catitan - catitan lama masa hati dia patah-remuk-berkecai. Aku gelakkan dia. Sampai keluar keluar air mata. Sebenarnya aku tak tau nak react macam mana. Sebetulnya aku cemburu sebab dia pernah sayang perempuan lain sampai macam tu sekali. But instead of telling him that, I told him that what he did was stupid.
Katanya, dia mengaku, apa yang dia buat 8 tahun lepas memang bodoh. Dia terima semuanya. Dia mengaku dia memang bodoh sampai sanggup berhenti kerja, balik kampung, hidup tertekan, rindukan perempuan yang seorang tu. Padahal perempuan yang seorang itu, seronok seronok dengan lelaki lain. Dia mengaku dia memang bodoh sampai sanggup tak bertegur sapa dengan parents nya sebab his parents refuse to let her speak to him when she called. Padahal perempuan itu cuma telefon untuk tanya bila nak putuskan tunang. Haih...
Bila kawan - kawan bagi nasihat yang di akan jumpa somebody better dari perempuan yang seorang itu, dia langsung tak percaya. Dalam kepala dia cuma ada perempuan yang seorang itu je lah. Baik buruk perempuan yang seorang itu, he just want to be with her. Little that he realized, she was the one who din't want to be with him in the first place..Tsk..Tskk..
Forward beberapa tahun ke hadapan, we get to know each other. Perkara pertama yang aku nampak pada dia, dia bukan jenis lelaki yang suka berselindung. Kalau dia suka, directly dia akan cakap dia suka. Buang masa nak main dengan perasaan katanya. Well, he did kissed me on my forehead during our second date. Di khalayak ramai pulak tu. Quite forward don't you think?
The thing is from what I observed, those who survived hati-pecah-remuk-berkecai experience, in the end will be a stronger and more content person. These people know what they want in life and won't beat behind the bush. They are more independent, more patient and more matured in life.
I admire these people.
Seriously.
.
Yang pastinya aku tak tau nak react macam mana kalau ada kawan kawan yang hati patah-remuk-berkecai. Aku selalu hilang punca kalau dalam situasi macam tu. Aku jadi takut. Takut salah cakap....takut salah buat lawak.....takut kawan kawan terasa hati....takut macam macam lah....
Lama sebelum aku kenal Hubby, hati nya pernah patah-remuk-berkecai sebab seorang perempuan. MIL pun pernah juga "terkeluar" cerita yang satu itu kalau bergossip - gossip ringan dengan aku, tatkala Hubby pergi bermain bola sepak di padang, of course.
Ala...kalau bercerita depan dia pun sekarang ni pasal hal tu, dia dah tak rasa apa pun sebenarnya.
Dia pernah bagi aku baca catitan - catitan lama masa hati dia patah-remuk-berkecai. Aku gelakkan dia. Sampai keluar keluar air mata. Sebenarnya aku tak tau nak react macam mana. Sebetulnya aku cemburu sebab dia pernah sayang perempuan lain sampai macam tu sekali. But instead of telling him that, I told him that what he did was stupid.
Katanya, dia mengaku, apa yang dia buat 8 tahun lepas memang bodoh. Dia terima semuanya. Dia mengaku dia memang bodoh sampai sanggup berhenti kerja, balik kampung, hidup tertekan, rindukan perempuan yang seorang tu. Padahal perempuan yang seorang itu, seronok seronok dengan lelaki lain. Dia mengaku dia memang bodoh sampai sanggup tak bertegur sapa dengan parents nya sebab his parents refuse to let her speak to him when she called. Padahal perempuan itu cuma telefon untuk tanya bila nak putuskan tunang. Haih...
Bila kawan - kawan bagi nasihat yang di akan jumpa somebody better dari perempuan yang seorang itu, dia langsung tak percaya. Dalam kepala dia cuma ada perempuan yang seorang itu je lah. Baik buruk perempuan yang seorang itu, he just want to be with her. Little that he realized, she was the one who din't want to be with him in the first place..Tsk..Tskk..
Forward beberapa tahun ke hadapan, we get to know each other. Perkara pertama yang aku nampak pada dia, dia bukan jenis lelaki yang suka berselindung. Kalau dia suka, directly dia akan cakap dia suka. Buang masa nak main dengan perasaan katanya. Well, he did kissed me on my forehead during our second date. Di khalayak ramai pulak tu. Quite forward don't you think?
The thing is from what I observed, those who survived hati-pecah-remuk-berkecai experience, in the end will be a stronger and more content person. These people know what they want in life and won't beat behind the bush. They are more independent, more patient and more matured in life.
I admire these people.
Seriously.
.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Over the 38th weekend...
I thought I will be giving birth over the weekend. But I'm still here, still officially pregnant.
I did took off on Monday because I was too tired from the travelling over the weekend, Oh, we went to Selama, hubby's hometown. We went to pay a visit to his uncle. He was seriously ill. Hubby used to live with him for a couple of years back when he was still working in Taiping and it was during those time that I met Hubby.
The initial plan was that it will be just a brief visit. Mainly due to my condition. But the plan changed when his uncle died 2 hours after we arrived. We then decided to just stay and spend the night there. I think it is inappropriate to get back. It was too late to get to the rest house and there was no hotel around, so we just slept beramai - ramai di ruang tamu.
It was really tiring as I can't really dozed off. Hubby was busy helping with whats necessary. He did not even sleep. And I was on my own most of the times. I think I'm being a really good girl. Except that one time I cried because it was too hot. I sat in the car, trying to cool myself down. I thought Hubby would not notice, and I don't want him to notice either. But he did. And came to my rescue. And that make my tears came running down faster....tak pasal - pasal nak sayu...tah ape ape.
Afternoon came and my contraction began to feel really different than the usual ones. Hubby was still not around. I am not that worried tho'. There's a hospital nearby. And my MIL was with me. Around 5, she told me to call Hubby. I think she can see the pain in my face. She kept reminding me to tell her if I was experiencing any pain and do not keep it to myself. I just smiled. And told her that I'm ok.
Hubby came back dari tanah wakaf around 6 and we went back to Ipoh after maghrib. In the car, during the 2 hours trip, I experienced 3 contractions, all were harder than the usual ones. When we reached home, I just lied down on the bed. Unable to move. I slept like a log. All the pain gone already looorrr...
Hubby on the other hand, can't close his eyes and kept checking on me, which I find quite funny. His excuse : my water might break and I did not notice that because I was too tired...tapi kalau katil dah basah..takkan tak sedar kan???
I did took off on Monday because I was too tired from the travelling over the weekend, Oh, we went to Selama, hubby's hometown. We went to pay a visit to his uncle. He was seriously ill. Hubby used to live with him for a couple of years back when he was still working in Taiping and it was during those time that I met Hubby.
The initial plan was that it will be just a brief visit. Mainly due to my condition. But the plan changed when his uncle died 2 hours after we arrived. We then decided to just stay and spend the night there. I think it is inappropriate to get back. It was too late to get to the rest house and there was no hotel around, so we just slept beramai - ramai di ruang tamu.
It was really tiring as I can't really dozed off. Hubby was busy helping with whats necessary. He did not even sleep. And I was on my own most of the times. I think I'm being a really good girl. Except that one time I cried because it was too hot. I sat in the car, trying to cool myself down. I thought Hubby would not notice, and I don't want him to notice either. But he did. And came to my rescue. And that make my tears came running down faster....tak pasal - pasal nak sayu...tah ape ape.
Afternoon came and my contraction began to feel really different than the usual ones. Hubby was still not around. I am not that worried tho'. There's a hospital nearby. And my MIL was with me. Around 5, she told me to call Hubby. I think she can see the pain in my face. She kept reminding me to tell her if I was experiencing any pain and do not keep it to myself. I just smiled. And told her that I'm ok.
Hubby came back dari tanah wakaf around 6 and we went back to Ipoh after maghrib. In the car, during the 2 hours trip, I experienced 3 contractions, all were harder than the usual ones. When we reached home, I just lied down on the bed. Unable to move. I slept like a log. All the pain gone already looorrr...
Hubby on the other hand, can't close his eyes and kept checking on me, which I find quite funny. His excuse : my water might break and I did not notice that because I was too tired...tapi kalau katil dah basah..takkan tak sedar kan???
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